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    I’ve been thinkin’ about Bears


    (the song, that is)


     







    Some folks say there ain’t no bears in Arkansas
    Some folks never seen a bear at all
    Some folks say that bears go around eating babies raw
    Some folks got a bear across the hall

    Some folks say that bears go around smelling bad
    Others say that a bear is honey sweet
    Some folks say this bear’s the best I ever had
    Some folks got a bear beneath their feet

    Some folks drive the bears out of the wilderness
    Some to see a bear would pay a fee
    Me I just bear up to my bewildered best
    And some folks even see the bear in me

    So meet a bear and take him out to lunch with you
    And even though your friends may stop and stare
    Just remember that’s a bear there in the bunch with you
    And they just don’t come no better than a bear










    – Steven Fromholz – “Bears”


    as performed by Lyle Lovett



    Just a favorite of mine —


    it was playing in my head a lot this weekend.


    No reason, ‘cept that I like it.


     



     


    Bernie actually had a two day weekend for a change — he didn’t get called in to do O.T. today. We went to camp Saturday night and came home Sunday evening, and today I got a lot of yard work done before it began to rain. Last week I made some major progress with sorting through all the stuff stored in the breezeway, and cleaning that room as well. Still tearing out floor tiles as I am clearing my way down to more area on the floor. Did a little more cleaning and sorting in there this weekend, too, it feels really good to see the clutter going away.



    An altogether pleasant weekend. No health crises with the furbabies, not even any serious cat fighting. Angel walked through the living room a couple of times today, actually venturing into the main part of the house from the yard and garage. She didn’t stay long, she was just checking things out. Tommy was sleeping in the kitchen chair and didn’t even notice her. Ziggy is still staying in the garage. I think perhaps her adventure out in the yard and barn was more than enough for her for a while.



    Friday we got new roof shingles put on the cabana — that little building out in the back yard that used to be changing rooms and a bathroom until the swimming pool was filled in. For the past 10 years or more it has been used for storage, and like everything else around here, fell into pretty bad disrepair. Bernie and I do not do stuff on ladders if we can help it, so the roof had to be a job for a pro. It really needed to be done, there were bare wood spots just waiting to get rotten and leaky.


    There were roofers working on the house next door, so I went to ask them if they wanted to do a small job, and it just happened that they didn’t have anything scheduled for the next day, so they did it. Funny thing was, the guy who did the work was already here twice this year — he worked for a while for the chimney company that fixed our chimney, before he went back to work for the roofer that he used to work for.


    As I have been working in the back yard, I have been working on the cabana a little bit at a time, as well. So far I got the weeds and stuff cleared away around it, part of the stuff stored inside sorted, and the bathroom cleaned out. My plumber friend Dennis hooked up the water lines and added an outside faucet for watering the plants on that end of the yard, but the cabana bathroom still needs a new toilet (the old one is cracked) It also needs the electric lines reconnected for the lights, and a couple of coats of paint on the doors, trim and inside walls. It has two rooms beside the one that the toilet is in, and I am using one for storing yard sale stuff (no idea when I will get around to actually having a yard sale) and the other one is going to hold all the gardening and yard tools and supplies.


    It will be nice when it is done, as well as useful — a lot better than having a decrepit old building full of crap sitting in the backyard.  I will post some updated pictures of the house and grounds soon, I promise…



     

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    Last night I dreamed about


    Key Limes.




    Not just limes, but, Key Limes — the delicious little devils that are about the diameter of a quarter and rarely available in the markets around here.


    I don’t remember much about the dream, except that I was picking Key Limes off a tree.



    Today I was out doing errands, riding around in the jeep with the top down (makes errands a lot more fun, believe me!) and one of the last places I had to go was the grocery store. Not to buy groceries, just to drop off a couple of bagsful of plastic bags for recycling. I have been doing some cleaning and declutterring in the house again, this time focusing on the breezeway — which has been a storage area for the past couple of years, and I want to make it a useable room again. The bags were just a part of the stuff I have been clearing out. I also had a big bag of things to drop off for charity, and a rug to take to the drycleaners today.


    So by the time I got to the grocery store, I was feeling pretty hot, despite the breezes in my hair as I was driving around. Right now the heat index is 93 degrees, that could have something to do with it.



    I have some more chores to do in the house, because Bernie wants to go to camp after he gets home from work, so I went into the grocery store to see if I could find something suitably refreshing to hel0p get me through my chores…


    And there in the middle of the aisle was a big bucket full of ice and POM Wonderful Pomegranite Juice. This stuff is so yummy! and good for you, too. I try not to drink fruit juice “straight” because of the high sugar content, but mixed with plain seltzer, fruit juice spritzers are one of my favorite drinks. Right next to the bucket of POM Wonderful, was the produce department, and there on the end of one of the tables were three baskets full to the brim with plump delicious looking limes. Not Key Limes, but they still looked delicious.


    The sign said “8 for $1.99″ — I said EUREKA!




    So here I sit, taking a break with a big, tall, icy cold pomegranite spritzer


    with a big fat wedge of lime, and lots of crushed ice.


    YUM!



    I highly recommend you do the same. It’s good for you, and oh, so refreshing.


    If straight pomegranite is too tart for your taste, I suggest the POM Wonderful Pomegranite/Mango Juice. It is so yummy it should be illegal. I haven’t tried the Pomegranite/Cherry Juice yet, that is definitely on my to-try list.



    Have a lovely weekend, whatever you’re doing,


    and take time for something cool and tasty.


     


     

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    Really cool product alert!



    I just got myself one of these and absolutely love it!


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    click the link to see



    For a person with non-carpeted floors and pets, it is one of the most useful inventions ever. It is the perfect combination of the very best features of a vacuum cleaner, dust-buster, and swiffer sweeper. Lightweight, cordless, bagless, and extremely efficient!


    I am going to have a clean house sooner or later, one that actually stays clean! And every time I get a new tool that makes it easier to get one step closer to this goal it makes me just want to do the happy dance all around the house!




     

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    Yikeys!



    I went to the library yesterday to return/renew some books, and while I was there I did a little research on domestic cat behavior.


    This is what I found out:


    When introducing new cats to the household, especially when they are adults, some initial growling, hissing and swatting is to be expected and is perfectly normal. Also some minor fighting is apparently nothing to worry about. For the first few weeks, up to about a month, it is best to keep them separated, and after that gradually introduce them, first allowing them to see each other from a safe distance, and then bringing them closer together for short periods of time.


    Okay, that sounds like what we have been doing, only we are letting the cats do it on their own, as they feel more adventurous about entering the main part of the house.


    But, I also found this tidbit of information:


    You can expect a three to six month adjustment period before the new cat is fully integrated into the household. If after that time there is still conflict then further measures must be taken…



    Three to Six months???!!!???



    Will our nerves survive this???



     

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    Another week gone by — out with a bang…



    and this weekend’s selection of 


    adifrentdrumr’s choice song lyrics


     


    Once again, I have had a…well…interesting few days. Never a dull moment around here. All is well now, more or less, but it could have been a very serious problem. You see, I was out on Friday afternoon, into the early evening, getting some errands done and the oil changed in the truck. Meanwhile, Bernie came home from work, nuked a couple of leftover ears of corn-on-the-cob, which he ate, and then left his plate (with the corncobs) on the tray table next to his chair in the living room while he went out in the yard to put some chicken on the grill…


    I came home, and puttered around in the yard a bit, and then Bernie told me that our little Pearl – the “problem child” apparently had consumed nearly two corncobs! He only found a small piece, about 1/2 of one, and the little plastic and metal corncob holders, sitting on the day bed where Pearl likes to munch on her chewies. Well, corncobs are not approved chewies! And that was an awful lot of sheer volume for one little dog to swallow. 


    Even though she seemed fine, and had a normal appetite (she ate her regular dinner after the “episode”) I called the vet, they told me that dogs and corncobs definitely don’t mix. To keep a close eye on her and if she began vomiting, lost her appetite, seemed to be in pain or acted lethargic, to get her into the office ASAP. The danger is in obstruction of the small intestine, or other parts of the digestive system, which can require surgery, or even be fatal.


    I stayed up all night with her, watching her sleep, mostly… She tried to vomit a few times, with no results, and her belly was distended up under her ribs (which would indicate stomach or small intestine) but not at all in the softer part of her belly, where the large intestine is, and I can always feel if they have been eating too much – at their size you can pretty much feel everyting going on inside their little bellies. Since it apparently hadn’t traveled down very far, I was really worried about blockage, and the belly seemed to be a bit blown up with gas (not completely solid)  so I worried about bloat as well (also potentiall fatal, but not really common in small dogs) Fortunately she is really cooperative with any medications, and licked up a spoonful of liquid antacid/anti-gas medicine ith no complaints. That seemed to help the gas a bit. She puked up a couple of small pieces of her dinner kibble, and didn’t appear to be in any pain. On the other hand, I was in my own sort of agony, wide awake worrying about her.


    Saturday morning she pooped as usual, and it definitely had some corncob in it. Feeling a bit relieved, I climbed into Bernie’s bed with the dogs after he went to work and got a little bit of sleep with Pearl next to me. But she didn’t quite seem to be herself, and the belly was still oddly swollen up high. She had a normal appetite, ate some dog cookies and drank some water. She pooped again, and then vomited quite a bit of partly digested food and corncob. She just wasn’t as bouncy and alert as usual, and did appear to be moving like her belly was uncomfortable. No obvious tender spots when I touched it, though, a good sign.


    I went on my saturday Post Office trip, and when I came home, Pearl had puked again, this time more corncob and it didn’t appear digested at all. I was worried that she might get worse as time passed, and then we would be in big trouble since the vet is closed on Sunday. At that time, we were also planing on going to camp for the weekend. So I decided to take her to the vet, who had walk-in hours on Saturday afternoon. Dolly was due for her distemper shot, so I could get that done and get Pearl checked out as well.


    The vet examined her throughly and explained to me that the biggest danger with corncobs is when people don’t know dogs have eaten them, and they don’t find out until after a blockage has formed and impacted in the intestine. Since we knew almost immediately, we were able to keep a close watch on her, which should help prevent serious complications. But there really was no way of telling exactly what is going on inside at that point. He said he felt no lumps that would indicate a blockage, but it was really too soon to tell. But she acted quite normal, despite having a very full tummy, so he was optimistic.


    He gave her some liquid barium (squirted it in her mouth with a syringe — which she was very indignant about) so that if she had t come back in for x-rays, they would be able to see how it was traveling through her. He told me she still had some gas, to give her the liquid antacid again for that, and keep feeding her small amounts, so her digestive system would keep things moving through (and I could see that she continued to have a good appetite)  A little vomiting should not be a cause for alarm, and as long as she continued eating, drinking and pooping (the normal dog routine) and didn’t act sick or lethargic, it would probably pass through in a few days.


    Bernie and I decided not to go to camp. It was raining saturday evening anyway, so we figured we would stay home and then if Pearl wasn’t doing well in the morning we could take her in for an emergency vet visit sunday morning. If she was doing okay (which she was) we would just leave the dogs home so Pearl could continue digesting, and we would take the jeep and go on a day trip (which we did — down to the shore to visit my cousin, and out to a couple of kayak stores, it was a beautiful day for a ride)


    So Dolly had her shot. She is up to date. The vet checked her knees, too, because she has been a little stiff. One of the kneecaps was out (she has a problem with that — common occurence in toy dogs) so he popped it back in place. Told me it would be okay for me to start her on a glucosamine supplement for her joints.


    Pearl is continuing to eliminate corncob, she’s not puking anymore, and her belly is getting back to normal. The fullness is more evenly distributed — I can feel that it has shifted toward the large intestine. The vet said the barium would turn her poo yellow, so we would be able to tell when most had passed through when we could see the color change from the barium. Still not changing color, so I guess her intestines haven’t processed all the corncob yet. But I am optimistic at this point. I think the worst part has passed (no pun intended — honest!)



    So just when things are calming down with the dogs, the cats have started up. Angel is getting adventurous. She must be getting tired of the garage and breezeway and really wants to come in the house. We have been leaving the doors open, but she has stayed just outside the kitchen door, in the breezeway, glaring and growling at Tom. Tommy started out just being friendly, and not trying to start any trouble at all with the new cats. But I think he is getttnig tired of her agression toward him. He started returning some of the yowls and growls. We are hoping they will sort things out.


    But tonight they got in a bit of a row. Bernie went out to see what the noise was, Tommy was in the doorway, and Angel was just outside the doorway on the breezeway and the were glaring at each other and making some threatening noises (like they have been) When bernie went out, he must have disturbed whatever tenuous balance there was, because Angel lunged at Tom, and Tom fought back. Bernie didn’t realize that one cannot reach into a catfight to break it up. Fortunately, neither one has front claws, so the damage wasn’tserious, but Bernie was quite upset when his Tommy started going for him! I had run to the kitchen sink to grab a glass of water — so I could startle them apart, but I was too late — Bernie’s attempts to break the fight up had worked. They obviously were not very serious about fighting because the went off in opposite directions without me even having to splash them.  


    After Angel went back to the garage, Tommy sat outside the door “singing” and “calling” to her. In his friendly voice again. I am surprised to find that the new cat is the obvious agressor here, especially since she is a really timid cat. Remember — Angel is the one that hid under the woodstove for the first three weeks she was here. I hope that eventually they get this thing sorted out. We will not leave the door open so that they could get together when we are not here to supervise until we are sure they won’t beat each other up. But we really hope that all of the animals can start living inside the house soon, before cold weather comes and we have to use the wood stove to heat the garage. It would be too dangerous to have the cats living out there then, with a fire going in the stove they have gotten used to climbing on and under.


    Funny thing is, Ziggy either hasn’t realized Tommy is there, or else she just doesn’t care. And she is usually the adventurous and curious one!


    Well, at least the dogs no longer freak them out. They pretty much ignore the dogs now. I think they would prefer if that other cat wasn’t here — but they just have to get used to the fact that it is his house too, and he was here first!



     


    On to the song lyrics…


    In all the excitement at the beginning of this month, with the jury duty and all, I never even wrote about the concert we went to on August 4th. We went to see Boz Scaggs at the Keswick Theatre in Glenside, PA, a beautifully restored, acoustically wonderful, small historic theatre. It is one of our favorite venues, and Boz is one of our favorite artists. This show was a part of his “Essentials” tour, in which he showcased many of his best loved songs from all eras of his long and varied career.


    With a six piece band and two incredibly talented female backup vocalists, he played to a full house of enthralled fans. The crowd was so engrossed in the magic of the music, there were barely whispers in the audience during the quieter passages, but they responded with energetic applause for every song, and several standing ovations during the show, as well as for the wonderful encores at the end. Needless to say, we loved it as well. And it was a very welcome distraction during the end of my tenure as a juror, taking my mind off the days events for a few hours.


    The following lyrics are from one of my favorite Boz Scaggs songs, a highlight of the evening for me. The extended instrumental jam at the end of this song alone was well worth the price of the tickets! One major thrill for me was to hear the old Fender Rhodes piano prominently featured — not a common occurence these days, but a distinctive sound that just can’t quite be replicated with the newer keyboards.


    From one of the albums that I would include in my list of “desert island albums” – you know, those dozen or so albums that you would want to have with you if you were stranded on a desert island — this is one of the most gorgeous, most melancholic, most moodily evocative love songs ever sung, and one that strikes a particular chord within my heart…


     





    Son of a Tokyo Rose
    I was bound to wander from home
    Stranger to whatever I’d awaken to
    Spun the wheel, took a shot in the dark
    One way ticket and runaway heart
    Sailor’s dream came true
    The night I dreamed you

    Through the neon doorways
    Down the stony streets, I fell
    All hands hi-side, all eyes a-wreck, I followed
    Sailing shadows, reds and blues
    Curtains drawn, but I saw through
    The window to your soul and I found you

    Oh oh oh oh
    The harbor lights of Venus shining
    Through the breeze
    That brings me back to you, my love
    To you, my love, to you my love

    Oh-oooh


    My eyes must be betraying
    But that lonesome jukebox playing
    Something ‘bout the harbor lights is calling me
    Back to some Jamaican bay
    Doesn’t seem so far away
    Keep the change, but I’ll repay these memories

    Dawn came in this mornin’
    Like some old junked-out melody
    The words she spoke as we awoke
    still haunt me…
    What you feel too, won’t reveal you
    Let me steal you, for my life



    – Boz Scaggs “Harbor Lights”

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    found in this morning’s email:

     

    Facts about men and women

    He said…I don’t now why you wear a bra; you’ve got nothing to put in it.
    She said…You wear pants don’t you?




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    He said…Shall we try swapping positions tonight?  She said..That’s a good
    idea – you stand by the ironing board while I sit on the sofa.! 






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    He said…What have you been doing with all the grocery money I gave you?
    She said… Turn sideways and look in the mirror!


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    On a wall in a ladies room…”My husband follows me everywhere”  Written
    just below it..” I do not”

    Who Me?


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    Q. How does a man show that he is planning for the future?
    A. He buys two cases of beer.


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    Q. What is the difference between men and government bonds?
    A. The bonds mature.


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    Q. Why are blonde jokes so short?
    A. So men can remember them.


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    Q. How many men does it take to change a roll of toilet paper?
    A. We don’t know; it has never happened.


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    Q. Why is it difficult to find men who are sensitive, caring and
    good-looking?
    A. They already have boyfriends.


    *********************************************


    Q. What do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?
    A. A widow


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    Q. Why are married women heavier than single women? 
    A. Single women come home, see what’s in the fridge and go to bed.  Married
    women come home, see what’s in bed and go to the fridge.


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    Q. What is the one thing that all men at singles bars have in common?
    A. They’re married.


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    Man says to God: “God, why did you make woman so beautiful?”
    God says: “So you would love her.”
    But God,” the man says, “why did you make her so dumb?”
    God says: “So she would love you.”


     


    Men — we love you anyway!


    Viva la difference!



     

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    Our newest family members:


    Angel



    in the garage window, wearing her brand-new collar and ID tag.


    Ziggy



    the prodigal kitty has returned! she doesn’t look too happy about it.


       


    mostly she spends her time watching everything from some semi-hidden vantage point — too curious to hide completely!


     


    And both of them,


    doing what they do the most –


     


    Glaring at the dogs!



    Oh well, sooner or later everyone will learn to get along. At least the dogs don’t chase them, or bark at them, or really pay much attention to them at all. And when the cats give the dogs a warning hiss or swat, the dogs back right up. Pearl even lay down on the floor in front of Ziggy today, to prove to her that she meant her no harm (my dogs are really diplomatic — well versed in pack behavior)


    The cats don’t run or even flinch the slightest bit any more when the dogs come running out the the garage barking and falling over each other. They are developing a similar attitude in that respect to the one that Tommy has toward the dogs: “They are funny looking and smell weird; mostly harmless, fun to watch, but noisy, goofy, and not much good for anything else” Even though he was here for more than 10 years when the first dog (Dolly) arrived at the house, Tommy has gotten used to the dogs being around and rarely shows any agression toward them, just the ocassional swat at Pearl, more out of playfulness than anything else. Angel and Ziggy aren’t ready to let the dogs come anywhere close to them, and don’t like to take their eyes off them yet, so I think they are still not sure if the dogs are a threat or not.



    by staying in the garage,


    they are missing out on an awful lot of spoiling!



    Angel shows more concern when she sees Tommy than when she sees the dogs. Ziggy, as far as I know, still hasn’t seen Tommy, because she hasn’t come out of the garage, and he has been staying away from the garage since Angel gave him such a loud warning last time he ventured out there.


    Last night, Angel tried to come into the house, throught the breezeway door (we are leaving it open so they can come in when they are good and ready) but Tommy was in the doorway. She growled and yowled and hissed, and we were sure the fur was going to fly. The dogs were right there, right away (maybe to back Tommy up against the intruders) but she seemed oblivious to the dogs, just wanted to let Tommy know she wanted no parts of him. But he didn’t care either way. He just wanted to say “hi”. He didn’t put his ears back or his hair up on his back, or make any noises back at her. He just turned and walked away. I hope they decide to be friendly to him. He is an old guy, and it would be nice if he had some friends of his own species. He obviously wants to be friends with them. Which really surprised us, we expected him to at least be a little bit territorial.



    Tommy, not the least bit worried.


    All I can say, is at this time, I am glad all three have been declawed in front (years ago, when they were just kittens). No matter what your views on declawing are, it sure does make times like this a lot less stressful when you know that none of the animals have an unfair advantage over the others, and they are less likely to do any serious damage if a fight does break out in the getting-aquainted stages.


    Eventually they will all become a family, I am sure.



    But I think Daddy might run out of lap space…



     

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    Sunday Morning Still Life…



    Have a lovely day, Dear Reader.



     

  • ****another update: Ziggy just came home! I was doing some cleanup in the yard, and set the food dish we had been leaving out for her up on a lawn chair next to the breezeway door — so I’d remember to bring it in and wash it. Then I went over to the patio (on the other side of the breezeway) to cut back some pottted plants. Bernie came out to tell me that Ziggy was sitting in the chair by the empty dish. But when we got out there, she ran next door behind the barn. We lured her out with some tuna fish (get’s ‘em every time) and as soon as she got close enough, grabbed her and brought her back. So she is now out in the garage with Angel — who has gotten extremely tame and friendly since Ziggy has been gone, but still will not venture out of the garage into the breezeway or back yard (which is fenced-in) Oh well, I guess we will just give them time…maybe Ziggy will see how calm Angel is now and decide its an okay place to live after all. 



    ***update: Bernie went for the ultrasound, there are no blood clots, so it is most likely a pulled or torn calf muscle — more likely pulled, as there is no bruising. He is supposed to stay off it and keep it elevated as much as possible, and can go back to work Monday if it feels better. We are considering going to the concert tomorrow night. Right now, we are just watching the evening news and pondering the shocking new developments in the NJ State House:


    Governor McGreevy admits homosexuality, extramarital affair, resigns!


     



    still (slowly) getting myself back together…


    Been catching up on work around the house and in the house, and getting some rest as well. I think somewhere over the course of the weekend I came to terms in my heart and head with the mental and emotional effects of the preceeding weeks concerning the trial and events surrounding it.


    I have also been catching up on my eBay-related work and computer stuff. Went out and purchased the new monitor to go with the new computer (17″ LCD, on sale at CompUSA for $329 with rebates — YESSS!) so now I can actually see what I am doing (that old 15″ monitor gave me a headache) so I finished installing the scanner, pen tablet, and most of the software that has been waiting to go on this beastie. Time to get back to work listing new book auctions now, with the end of the summer, and hopefully the end of the slow selling season, coming.


    Bernie has been playing Bob Marley tapes in the jeep lately. This time of year is definitely Marley weather. Especially when riding around with the top down. This music is one of the few things we have in common, which brought us together as the (somewhat odd) couple that we are, and have been for (gasp! are we that old???) nearly 20 years…


    Tomorrow there is a concert, actually a mini-festival, in town, at the Sovereign Bank Arena, in celebration of Bob Marley’s life and legacy, and featuring Ziggy and his other sons, along with some special guests and authentic Carribean food, too.


    I don’t think we will be going, at least we didn’t plan on it, because of Bernie’s work schedule. However, he is off work for the next few days, on doctor’s orders, because he is having trouble with his leg. He doesn’t remember any specific injury to it, but the calf and ankle have swollen and he has been having a lot of pain for more than a week. Today he is going for an ultrasound to check for blood clots, which the doctor doesn’t really suspect, but is sending him for the test just to be certain. The doc thinks it is a torn or pulled calf muscle, but wants to rule out more serious stuff, since Bernie isn’t sure how it could have happened. It just occurred to me while I am writing this, that perhaps we can go to the concert after all, if he sits in a seat, he will be following orders and staying off his feet. And he doesn’t dance — not even to Reggae music (something I simply can’t fathom — you play reggae music, and even my hair dances!) so he would be sitting in a seat anyway, as usual. (we call it “Zen dancing”)



     


    So I just figured I would post my weekend song lyrics a bit late this week, since this one has been running through my mind…


    My favorite Bob Marley song, oddly enough, is not really a reggae song but a straight folky-type song, almost Dylanesque, that was written toward the end of his tragically short career. It is a beautifully simple tune, with poignant and potent lyrics, purely expressing the spirituality and hope for a positive future that this great man’s music embodied.


     






    Old pirates yes they rob I
    Sold I to the merchant ships
    Minutes after they took I from the
    Bottom less pit
    But my hand was made strong
    By the hand of the almighty
    We forward in this generation triumphantly
    All I ever had is songs of freedom
    Won’t you help to sing these songs of freedom
    Cause all I ever had redemption songs, redemption songs

    Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
    None but ourselves can free our minds
    Have no fear for atomic energy
    Cause none of them can stop the time
    How long shall they kill our prophets
    While we stand aside and look
    Some say it’s just a part of it
    We’ve got to fulfill the book

    Won’t you help to sing, these songs of freedom
    Cause all I ever had, redemption songs, redemption songs, redemption songs

    Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
    None but ourselves can free our minds
    Have no fear for atomic energy
    Cause none of them can stop the time
    How long shall they kill our prophets
    While we stand aside and look
    Yes some say it’s just part of it
    We’ve got to fulfill the book

    Won’t you help to sing, these songs of freedom
    Cause all I ever had, redemption songs
    All I ever had, redemption songs
    These songs of freedom, songs of freedom
       





    – Bob Marley – “Redemption Song”

  • (note– This is last night’s entry, but I have added a few more thoughts to this today)


    and now this link to today’s news article on one local paper


     



    The Trial is over.


    I am exhausted, mentally and emotionally.


    It was a difficult task, but after nearly three solid days of deliberation the jury reached a verdict of guilty. Quite a responsibility, handing down a guilty verdict in a murder trial, especially one with certain gaps in the evidence presented. The deliberations were very frustrating and tensions were running high in the room, where they kept us all locked up in close quarters for hours on end to hash it out. Everyone’s emotions were all over the place, and nerves worn down to a frazzle by the time we gave the sherrif’s officer the note saying we had reached a decision, and then had to go into court to do the formal part (that we have all seen on TV).


    We found out after the trial ended that some of the gaps in the evidense and testimony were due to the fact that the defendant had already been convicted of several other offenses and was already serving time (a total of 35 years) for previous convictions. But of course, due to the restrictions on what can be presented in a trial, as per the US Constitution, in order to provide to most fair and unbiased judgement for each offense, the jury was not allowed any information that could lead to our concluding that he was currently incarcerated for previous crimes. Frustrating, but when I found out about the other crimes afterwards, it filled in some blanks and reinforced my belief that I had made the proper choice.


    The very worst thing came at the very end of the trial. I am too exhausted to go into all the details, but in a nutshell, the defendant flipped out in the courtroom, and bolted for the door. It took at least 8 sherrif’s officers to tackle and subdue him, restrain him and get him out of there in cuffs. Tables and chairs were flying everywhere, as attorneys and court officials scattered to the corners of the room and the jury, well, we were all pretty close to shitting our pants, believe me! I was ready to hit the floor at any sign of danger heading in my direction as I sat trapped in that jury box. Then as they dragged the guy out, he gave the jury one last long hard, cold (chilling!) stare…


    I think it may take a week or so for my adrenaline levels to subside. The jury was 11 women and one man, with two female alternates sitting in the seats in the back of the courtroom. I reacted with my usual pattern, fairly calm (at least on the surface) during the crisis, and falling apart completely after we were taken safely back to the jury deliberation chamber to calm down and wait for the next step.


    Fortunately the judge didn’t require us to return to the courtroom. Instead she came to us, thanked us for our service, and chatted with us for a while about any concerns we had. She assured us that we would be safe, there was no way anyone could access our names and addresses or anything else like you see in the movies, and explained that the defendant was already incarcerated for an extensive period of time, and that the penalty for the murder charge is 30 years to life, on top of the sentence he is already serving. She will be doing the sentencing around September 17th, and it is one case I will definitely be looking for in the paper (I usually don’t pay attention to the local news like that)


    I may decide to write more concerning this in the future, or I may decide to just put it all behind me and try to forget about the negative aspects of the experience. It was a very valuable life experience to me, to be a part of the justice system, and to have to opportunity to help see that justice was served in the case of two people who society would probably have just written off.


    What I mean is, at first glance, when they hear that one drug dealer shot another one, most people would just think that he did the world a favor. But both of these parties (victim and shooter) are/were someone’s child once. Barely more than that when the shooting happened (24-25 years old) Both had kids of their own, too.


    And, I believe as well, that they both have souls. May Higher Power have mercy on them, and their families as well.



     


    Several of the jurors were severely traumatized by the experience. Most had been exposed to many things that were very far away from their sphere of experience in the course of the past 3 weeks. And the emotional impact of having to make such a decision is very difficult on everyone, but especially on folks who have a hard time separating their heart from their head.


    Being such a heart-driven person as I am, and having gone through some pretty tough stuff over the years, I have learned (usually the hard way) to make that separation when necessary. This experience shed light on a lot of things about myself, as well. I realized that I truly want to see the good in everyone, and tend to be very forgiving. Being a juror in this case necessitated overriding some of my natural human compassion and considering the facts presented as they impacted many lives. I realized also that it is possible to be compassionate and forgiving in ones heart toward a person who has made seriously bad choices or mistakes (for whatever reason), while still making decisions that are important for the safety and well being of the other people that his actions have affected and could affect in the future.


    So, as for me, this jury duty wasn’t the most difficult thing or most unpleasant thing I have ever done, but it weren’t no picnic either!


    I will be very happy to spend the next few days — when we are supposed to have gorgeous cool weather –  catching up on my yard work and hanging around the house — my refuge from the rest of the world. I want to forget about courtrooms and evidence and crime and the ghetto, and most of all senseless violence — and surround myself with the sweet children of Mother Earth for a while.



    We also have a small (but not exactly unexpected) crisis at home. 3 weeks or so passed, and the new cats were not adapting at all to their new home. And now it seems that somehow Ziggy has managed to slip out of the garage and disappear.


    We have put food out for her outside the garage door, and my brother assured me that they have always returned to his house when they are hungry, so she should come back. He also told me that he brought the cats here, fully aware of the possibility that one or both would decide to take off, and not to feel it was my fault. He knows we have been doing everything we could to make the transition easier on them, but they are 12 years old and there was a big chance that it wouldn’t work out, because they have never been fully socialized housepets.


    But I haven’t given up hope. I am going to contact the township’s animal control officer (I couldn’t do it while I have been in court) and maybe they will pick her up somewhere, if they haven’t already.  Maybe she will find another house she likes better, and someone else to feed her. She is an adult cat, and has lots of experience in living out-of-doors, as well as a healthy fear of vehicles and the road (my brother has told me she wouldn’t go anywhere near the road where he lived, which is at least as busy as ours, and kept her distance whenever a vehicle was running in their driveway or yard) So I think she has a decent chance of survival out there, and may wander back eventually.


    Meanwhile, Angel is getting more friendly with us, and she will have Tom for company, when she finally joins the household, if Ziggy doesn’t return.


    Since I will be back home again, and not gone to the courthouse all day long, I will be able to keep a watch for Ziggy around the area, too.


    What is meant to be, will be. I hope the Goddess is watching over her and guiding her little paws.